I had a very interesting chat with my children's minister this afternoon. She asked me if I still get worked up before a sale or if I have finally learned that it all works out in the end. And I told her that I have learned that it is what it is, and I have to trust that after 8 years and 20 some odd sales later, I know what I am doing and I have done everything I can do to make the sale a success.
But... here I sit. It's 2 am and here I am like I am every "night before the sale" running through all the things that need to be done in my mind. Oh sure, I tried to sleep. But I keep getting out of bed to add one more thing to my "to do" list for tomorrow. I don't like forgetting. I wonder if this is just me being anxious and excited about the sale, or if I have really learned my lesson... that the sale will be fine and in the end, it will be what it is.
Tomorrow we will find out how things kick off. I know it's going to be fun, it's going to be great catching up with old volunteers and meeting new volunteers, it is going to be what it is. But I know I put too much pressure on myself too. After all, this is our ministry sale. All of the proceeds go to our ministry partner... without us, they have a difficult time funding a significant portion of their annual budget. I don't know if it's anxiety or pressure or if I still, in the back of my mind have a hard time learning my lesson to trust in God. We'll know in 6 days how it all turns out. But tonight I stay up late, piddling around on my computer trying to make sure I don't forget anything.
You sale organizers... you know exactly what I am talking about.